Pilgrimages
When I returned from Germany, a friend told me of the pilgrimages she makes, whenever possible, to view pages from the St. John’s Bible. Back in the nineties, a calligrapher from Wales and the Benedictine Monks of St. John’s abbey in Minnesota began a project to create a new illuminated version of the Bible. The result, my friend told me, is visually stunning. Intense colors, bright gold and platinum leaf on vellum - she goes out of her way to view pages as they are exhibited around the country. She goes also because in her early life, the Bible was central.
I suppose it should have been obvious to me that my frequent sojourns in Germany are pilgrimages as well. This time, as I tried to plot a course between my father’s hometown of Gera and my own Krefeld, I realized I have traveled this path so frequently that I struggle to find new sights along the way. I have gone as far north as Lüneburg and as far south as Ulm between the two points. Our trip to Nördlingen and Trier via Speyer was a compromise route, but it was filled with history and art. When I tell my cousin Ulrike about my travels through Germany, she marvels that I know the country much better than she does. She’s a passionate traveler, but she is attracted to Thailand and Bali. For short trips, it’s the south of France.
I know Germany far better than I would if I lived there. If I had stayed, I would be drawn to more exotic places too. Germany is an easy, comfortable trip for me. I can slip on my alternate language and culture. In fact, I feel so secure, I don’t need to plan the trip in detail. But something was different this time. This was the first time I didn’t ache with longing to merge with the land. It didn’t bother me that I have to struggle to express myself; that some words refuse to leave the deep storage of my brain without coaxing. I even asked for help a few times. Maybe something shifted with the publication of my book. Germany will always be where I grew up, but it is no longer home.
But I am drawn back, over and over again, not because Germany is visually stunning, but because the sounds and sights connect me to a deeper past. The other reason is that it’s the only place where there are people that have known me, however distantly, all my life.
Here I am with my cousins Ulrike and Mareike.
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